Broken.

It's 3.20 in the middle of the night. I haven't sleep. No, i couldn't sleep.

当你说出那句话时, 我的心, 很痛很痛. 不管我再怎么用力地按着它, 它还是很痛, 很痛. 我不知道应该说什么了.

人, 往往总是站在自己的一个角度去想一样事情. 但是, 当你站在对方的角度想, 事情就变的不一样了, 有时还会觉得很讽刺. 以前, 我就是常常站在对方的那一边, 结果很多人都骂我, 说我自讨苦吃. 当时我不以为然. 渐渐的, 我发现我实在是一个超级大笨蛋. 我所做的事情根本就只是在辛苦自己而已. 好,我改了. 现在的我很自私, 总是第一个为自己着想, 但我很开心, 因为我再也不像从前一样辛苦了. 或许是习惯了, 不管面对什么问题, 我总是把自己排在第一. 所以现在, 问题出现了. 我不明白, 我只是爱我自己, 难道这样错了吗? 或许吧! 我觉得非常抱歉. 我根本没有办法去满足每一个人. 原谅我.

"它" 根本就是一个很完美的陷阱. 当你掉进"它"的陷阱的时候, 你会慢慢的无法呼吸, 最后, 溺毙. xp

对不起, 说了一大堆有的没的. 因为, 我不知道在这个时候, 应该找谁倾诉去. 只有这里, 永远都会做我的聆听者.

Really sorry. My chinese language isn't good, i only know how to speak. LOL. Feeling much more better now.

Good night people. =)

Trillion billion million apologies!

OMG OMG OMG OMG !!!

Sorry vanessa jie. =x I accidentally oversleep. Sorry sorry sorrryyy !!

omg, i am so PIG recently. Always cannot wake up, or wake up super late. YOR, I think i need to buy myself a huge alarm clock with those super noisy and loud tone. hahaha. Daddy says i don't have the commitment to wake up. But the thing is, eventhough i really remind myself must to wake up at a certain time the next day, I can't wake up as usual. Yorrrrrrrrrrr, i don't know why lah. HELP. -,-

* You change, do you? *-)

Moderate.

Well well well, today is the END of all these suffers and tortures. bwahahaha ! Actually, when i finally hand in the mathematic answer sheet, i don't feel like very exciting. I'm just, normal. Maybe i don't put much effort in this exam, therefore i feel very NORMAL.

Today i get to know some of the papers' results. Umm, i can only conclude that, all of them are moderate, just MODERATE. to me, is very okay already but to my mum, owh, so lousy. =( hahaha. xp parents like to compete, i don't know why. Hello, don't compete me with those super diligent people lah. xp

And, a good news today !!!!!!! super good news. =) I get super satisfied result for my add maths paper 2. woooooooooooooohoooooooooooooooo !!! i jump and utter a cry of happiness, satisfaction and excitement. =D hahaha. I never expect i can do well although i know how to do. xp because you know lah, sometimes here a bit careless mistakes, there a bit stupid mistakes, then the marks will be terribly deducted. and so luckily, i know how to answer paper 2, don't know how to answer paper 1. how stupid. -,- luckily my paper 2 can save the latter. xp haha. THANK YOU =DDDDDDDDDD thank you so much!

I am just so happy. =) I am NOT showing off yah guys. And, wish the very best luck to all my besties, buddies and classmates. =)

Go hell.

I don't know where to start with.

okay. First, I get back my Biology paper today, finally. =( Omg, i want to curse you BIOLOGY. But, i guess i should be satisfied with that kind of result. At first, i aim to fail that stupid bloody hell subject, but miracle happens. When i look at the planning experiment question, yeah, i am so relieved because i know how to answer. Then, i change my target - to pass. =P haha. And now, I get something more than pass. -,- so, you know lah. hahaha.

the second thing is, i am very dissatisfied with those teachers who think that 4science1 must know everything, must be good at everything, and is super intelligent. WHAT THE HELL is this? 4S1 students are not human? 4S1 students are God? huhhhh? I still remember months ago, Mr.* was teaching in the class. But at that time, we were all so blurred. We wanted to ask question. But before we could do that, he said "don't tell me you don't know this. 4s6 asks this i can understand, but you all, you all SHOULD know." omg, why must we know? If no one taught us, how come we know? We are god ar? know everything? wth.

Then today, the similar thing happen again. I thought Cik.* would be different from the other teachers. But i find that she's actually not. Sigh =( Not only that, Cik.* enters our class today. OMG, she really has a super LOW EQ. -,- She has no emotional-management, she is not considerate enough as a teacher and lastly, she extremely misjudges us. She successfully makes us all FED UP! I seldom scold rude words, but if you hear what she says, you will be pissed off as well.

Sigh. sorry, i am not in a good mood.

*I think biology curses me. =P

I deserve that.

Omg, today our "beloved" Mr.Lim returns our mathematics paper 2. and OMG, i get a very lousy marks. =( nevermind, i deserve it because i memang didn't study and just looked through at the very last minute. LOL. hahaha. xp

And this morning, trillion thank youS to my chemistry teacher. xp hehehe. She reminded me to check some questions and saved me from losing marks. THANK YOU =DDDDD hehehehe.

I am totally feeling hopeless about my exam results this time. -,- hahaha.

Hope that i'll be lucky again. =) Thank you. hehehe.

Harmony pictures.

These pictures are taken on Svenja's birthday in class. =)

Svenja with the guys.

class picture. =D

lastly, the girls. =D hehehe.

spot my small head between sien's and tracy's. hahaha.




4S1. =)

So lucky.

Here, I want to Thank VIV a lotttttttt a lotttt =D hahaha. Thank you for your help yea girl. hehehe.

Today i get to know my physic result. OMG, not very good but i'm satistied already. xp hahaha. What can you expect when you do super last minute revision? LOL.

Tomorrow is add maths, AGAIN. 0_______0 I don't know what to do lah. No mood to study for the second time. I just feel like HOLIDAY-ing. xp hahahaha. In class, we plan where to have fun instantly after school on friday. bwahahaha ! I can't wait. =P hehehe.

All the best to my besties, buddies and friends tomorrow.

Good luck to me tomorrow too. =) God Bless Me, thank you =D

I don't understand.

When somebody really treats you good, it's no harm treating people good in the same way, right?

But, sometimes, I really don't understand. Aiyaaa, forget about it.

Well, today I get to know my chemistry mark. =D SUPER SATISFIED. THANK YOU TEACHER !!! hehehe. =) I improve. teeheee. Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyy. ps : I am not showing off, i am just feeling very happy. =) Thank you. =)

Next, today is my germany classmate - SVENJA's birthday. =) hehehehe. the whole class celebrate her birthday together. =) En brings the cake there and it's yummilicious, tastier than the previous one. xp hehe. Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY again. =)

All the best in the remaining days. =)

Learnt.

Just finished watching PERFECT CUT II instead of studying. hehehe. =)

And, I love kelly's mother's one sentence.

" 重话轻说, 坏话好说, 破坏感情的话就别说. "

That's true.

It's no harm saying something good about other people. But, do not be judgemental. Never judge someone without knowing their personalities. I hope that i always do that. xp hehe.

Alright, all the best in this week. =) and

God Bless Me. Thankkkkkk youuuuuuu =)

Random pictures.

As i said, yesterday i went to en's house to bake a cake for Svenja. *finally somebody corrected me. Paiseh paiseh !!! hehehe. Took very little random pictures yesterday night because my camera was out of battery at that time. LOL.

spiralling chocolates.

EN =)

Three of us.


Tracy =D




her sister. xp lol.

Lastly, APPLE. =)

October is the PINK month - Breast Cancer Awareness Month. So i just simply edited the picture above. Well, take good care of our health always. =)

That is all. I need to study already. =P hahahaha. Be a good girl today.

well done sweetheart =D

ah, my sweetheart. =)

lil sista and brotha.

oh, he and his temporary tall "girlfriend" xp

the emcee is so HOT. =)


sister and I.

Little sister.

Vain.

haha, sista asked me to do this. -,-

After the KIDS mini concert, I received a message from kailing. =) Luckilyyyyy i saw the message early, then only i could meet them at STARBUCKS. =D hahahaha. Actually we planned to study for the remaining subjects there, but ended up we talked and talked and talked. Especially me, my mouth was like the backside of chicken (ji pi gu), talked A LOT lah. xp hahaha. No choice, i guessed i didn't hang out with them for a very long time already. =) a lot to CRAP. hehehe. Only kailing really concentrated on her add maths. =D hahaha. Super good girl.

kailing and pjing =D

ah viv. xp

lastly, kindly present you the picture of my sweetheart again. xp hehehehe.

At night after dinner, went to en's house to bake a cake for Svuenja. Do i spell her name wrongly? Please correct me if i do. Well, I really VERY NOT GOOD in kitchen stuffs, even simple stuffs like breaking an egg, i can do that until like a super duper hard thing. And i was like crashing the egg shell into pieces. The egg yolk is definitely "spoilt". Owhhhhhhh, how failure I am. Don't laugh, it's true. xp hahaha. =x

Had a very pleasant day. =) And, i am not studying, AGAIN. shittyyy. xp

My sweetheart =)

My always sweetheart =D

All the best to you. =D Tomorrow is the day for you to SHOW OFF !! xp muahhhh =)



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Today is the last english lesson for this year. =) very relaxing class. And, teacher tells us about those scary but real stories. OMG. -,- I dare not to stay overnight in any hotels anymore. =x super scary lah. Dont' know how those can happen also. YERRRRRRRRRRRRR. *goosebumps*


Nevermind, smile and believe in God and Angels. =) hehehe.

Yes it's a Friday!

OH yesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss !!!!!!!!!!!!

=) hehehe. Today it's a friday. oh yes oh yes oh so great. =D hahahaha.

Today, i did so badly for my biology paper. =( And the tips were all SO NOT ACCURATE. xp lol. Many of my classmates got an 'electric'shock when they read the experiment question, including me. sigh* but nevermind, it's OVER now. =) hehehehe.

And yes! Today is the end of this tough week. =) sooooo great! Physics is over, chemistry is over, biology is over and sejarah is OVERRRRRRR. =D wooohooooooooo ! SCREAMMMMMMMMMMM xp

I can't wait. I can't wait. I can't wait. =D

sleepless.

OMG OMG OMG. Sigh* Monday night slept at 2am. Tuesday night 3am. And yesterday night 4am. Today? 5am !? NO WAY pleaseeee =(

I am sooo sooo sooo regret to study at the very last minute. -,- Memang padan muka saya. lol.

Recently posts are all about exams. xp lol. No choice, my life currently is all about exams, exams and only exams. =( Nevermind, it's going to end very very soon. =) hahahahaha. Can't wait for tomorrow, the last day of this stupid toughest week. and I am looking forward to the coming of 30th of OCTOBER morning don't know what time d. xp hehehe.

Mum says that my exam results this time are going to experience a deterioration. And, i am going to prove her wrong. ngek ngek. xp hahahaha. IMPOSSIBLE lah.

I never aim too high, because i know my own grade too much well.

All the best buddies =) and God Bless Me. Thank You =D

sleepig.

Lol, this morning, i oversleep !!!! -,- When my aunty's car reaches my house d, then only my maid wakes me up. -,- But, i'm still unprepared. No choice, i have to tumpang my brother's car. so sorry. =(

Yesterday slept at three in the morning, i knew i couldn't wake up but i still thought that i could, ended up, i COULDN'T. xp hahaha.

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Well, both of the papers today are H.A.R.D. Do NOT ever says "S1 students lah, no need to study also can ace the subjects one." Stupid saying. -,-

Sigh, i need to study like an orang gila for tomorrow's papers already. =( SAD. Last minute revision really KILLS me. Padan muka saya. xD

God Bless Me Please. =) Thank Youuuu =D

Happy Birthday Sweetieee =)

She is very sweet, isn't she? =) hehehe.

Happy Sweet Sixteen to you sweetie =D hahahaha. Too bad that your birthday falls on exam day. -,- HOW SAD. but nevermind, i still hope that you do enjoy your day. =D

sweet sweet girl. her HIM, please treasure this girl okay. =)

I love you. muahhhhh =D

Tough week.

Well, this week is really a tough week. From tuesday to friday, the papers which we are going to sit for are really SCARY. xp hahaha.

Yesterday i slept very late in the middle of the night, because, i can't finish my chemistry revision. =P hahaha. but surprisingly, I can do most of the questions today. Oh, THANKS GOD. =D

The black circles under my eyes are like so long. Luckily i am bespectacled to school, so not very obvious.

Feeling quite nervous. I don't want to fail my sejarah again. =(

God Bless Me, Thank You. =D

Correction.

Okay, i need to do some correction for my previous post.

I'll be back earlier. =) =( hahahaha. no why, i just can't stand studying whole day long like a mad girl. OMG OMG OMG.

i want to screammmmmmmmmmmmmmm out louddddd !

God bless me please. =( Thank you.

SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM ~

Bye bye readers!

Hahahaha. This is another new week, exam week. Therefore, I must stop blogging, facebooking, twittering and bla bla bla. I know it's a bit too late lah. xp hahaha. I will be right back after exam - 30th October 2009. pheww, so long. xp hahaha. Pity you viv, yours end in November. -,- Nevermind, jyjy =)

GoodBye.

GoodBye.

and GoodBye. =)

* Racing with the time. All the best to my babes and dudes. =D

I'm like behind bars.

Today I can't study at home, and viv invited me together to the group study. Oh, so great. =D But, i got noooooo transport. GRRRRR. -,- Okay, fine. When mummy finally can fetch me, daddy is nagging at me again. -,- I can't go out again. OMG OMG OMG. I have been at home for soooooo many days. I think i could be more rotten than the stupid rotten potato already. Sigh*

My progress is too tooo too much slower than necessary. OMG, help me please. =( I guess i'll be having more grey hair. xo hahaha. =x

CHEOOOOOOONG AH!

Boredom is driving me crazi.

hahahaha. Ignore my idoitic face.

Well, lost my concentration today. From afternoon till night, i can't even complete one Bab lah. -,- FeiLou. Haihhhhhh. Haihhhhh. The stupid boredom is really driving me crazyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. And somemore, i am forced to skip my class today because no one fetch me there. Grrrr. -,- soo super duper angry.

Fine.

I only have breads for lunch. -,- I know i shouldn't complain lah because there are soo many poorer people who can't even get to eat. so, shut up. =x

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ~ *Sorry i am just trying to SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM =D

surprised !

HMPH. Today i am not in a good mood. =( Maybe due to this something, i get angry very easily recently. bwahahaha. HMPH. YOU, yes i mean YOU, be aware, if you make me angry again, i poke this on your face ! HMPH.

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Well, another thing is, i receive a very very surprising news today. O___________O OMG OMG OMG. I can't believe that. That news is not hundred percent confirmed yet but it's already 80 percent confirmed. Oh my Gosh. -,- Are the guys in this universe all the same? Can't believe it.

Mou Ngan Tai.

Irresponsible people!

Okay, this time, i am not going to scold myself here.

The stupid irresponsible man who reformatted my computer did not copy and save all my foldersss. Now, all of them are goneeeeee. GRRRR. stupid you, if you can't do that, please tell me that you can't and don't say that you can. I would copy and save them on my own !! I don't need your help at all. STUPID.

MEMANG GERAMMM.

time waits for no man.

Yeah, alot of people say that this month will just go very quickly due to exam. But now, I am very lack of time to do my revision =x urghhh. I still study very slowly, procrastinating here and wasting my time there. I never behave so bad before.

NERVOUS. SCARED.

I don't know what the hell is going on in my brain.

numb.

Today is the first day i really study. -,- is very late i know. Well, i study ALONE. soooo lonely lah. =( actually i can study with a bunch of besties, but due to transportation problems, i can't go to meet them. Grrrrr... How sad. =((((

Then, when i finally can concentrate, two fellows come in. I thought they come to read, but i only heard them talking from the first second they step into the room. Grrrrr... so stupid lah. Don't they know that this is a reading room? And the sign is soo OBVIOUS - silence please! meaning, ask you to shut up.

Both of them talk talk talk talk talk talk talk talk talkkkkkkk. @.@

Hello, keep quiet for a second boleh tak? -,-

Fineeeeeeeee. At night after class, I go to buy stationery for my sister. The queue is kinda long, so i line up patiently. Suddenly i receive SOMEBODY's phone call asking me to be faster and scolding me for taking so long time to just buy a little thing. Hello, i no need to queue ar? har?

I don't care. After paying for those stupid little things, i go to get my favourite yummilicous secret recipe cheese cakesss. HMPH. I always enjoy eating the cake, but this time, i don't. I realise i am just releasing my anger on the cake, i eat because i am angry. @.@ Sad case.

Yeah. They are SOMEBODY, and i am NOBODY.

My heart is numb already. Stay away from me!

I have to say

My mood isn't good today. =( Today is the last day of schooling for this week, meaning, i really really need to start studying already. But, i am still procrastinating like anything. Urgh. i feel like i'm a failure, 4s1 failure. I really want to give up in this class and switch to vivian's class next year, but is this worth it? lollll. I don't know. She says she always welcome me to her class. xp hahaha.

I have the intuition that my results this year will be like S.H.I.T. because i know my revision progress is clearly too slow and useless. Urgh, first time, i wish i can graduate cepat cepat. xp haha. i know, studying is the easiet thing in life, but still, i want to complain!!! =P hahaha. Bad bad me. Anyway, i am still blogging here just because i don't want to study. blehhh =P i open my text book, then start to daydream for at least ten minutes, then sleep for a while, then look myself in the mirror and search for irritating pimples, then gone crazy for a while, then ... bla bla bla. I do everything but studying. hahaha.

God help me. =( NO, i need to help myself but i just feel so helpless lah. No fun at all. -,- zzz.

All the Best !

Mr.Rotten Potato.

Haih, being in this Mr. Rotten Potato's place really feels bad. @.@

Stupiakkkk, i should accept my mum's suggestion before i step into this stupid so called honeymoon year.

HELPPPPP. Lifeless. No life. Boring. Sorrow.

reality.

Reality is stupid, cruel and inhumane.

當你有利用價值的時候，他們就會對你很好，拍你的馬屁。當你對他們來說已經是一無是處的時候，他們連用正眼看你都嬾。對嗎？

stop bullying me okay? although i just keep quiet, but won't you feel guilty or paiseh? har? I really don't understand how these human think. The brains are just like SHIT. yes, it's true. i have a low IQ. but so what? At least i am better than those people who have LOW EQs. stupid, emotional-control-loser. Please learn to control your temper, if not, get lost! I don't care who you are, adults or big boss, if you can just simply release your temper on anybody else, bull shit you. GET LOST. I hate these people. You don't deserve any respect from me. You feel so happy when you hurt them huh? STUPID.

I am soooooooooo pissed off. Grrrrr. @.@

liar.

I am not stupid okay!? don't fool me around. i know what you are doing, and please don't say NO anymore.

I hate liarssssssssss.

starbuckss !

YORRRRRRRR, I WANT TO GO TO STARBUCKSSSSSS. =(

SOBS.

Tanglungs =)

Yesterday afternoon, i was doing the bloody hell confusing add maths. I am not a pro in it. I did and erase, did and erase again, did and erase again, memang banyak gerammmm !! then, i accidentally broke my mechanical pencil due to my anger. =P =( this pencil has been with me since i was in primary school, yorr, so sad lah.

although it's still usable, it's no longer perfect. xp

After my class, then only i went to zy's house. =) He just moved into a new house. =) Something super unpleasant happened and it really pissed me off !

small head. xp

wei leong and yung wen. =)


rongkai the PIG.

en and tracy. =D

si fei po. xD

weileong =) he's really generous lah.

wahahaha. xp

i was dreaming i think. -,-

meeeeee.

sien was showing me her number. xp

shhhh =x you know what we did.

bk and weileong.

aiyor yor, chubbby sangat.

i wonder why boys like to pose like that?

Jangan kacau I. @.@

i said: give me my camera!!

en and i =D

attackkk !

After g******g, we headed to the lake behind his house.


what a romantic night. xp

full moon night. =)

beautiful tanglungs. =)

=)

sien. xp

without flash.

candle on a leave on the lake.

I love this picture.

I don't like fire. =P

group picture.

from the left, weileong, yungwen, boonkeong, rongkai, zhangyik, eric, tracy, sien and I. =)

eric's retarded posture. xp

the six guys.

wei leong was not in lah.

bk, you need to gain weight.

shuping, tracy, en =DDD

three PAIRS.

big girls. =)

looking at the beautiful moon that night.

there were total of nine of us. =)

GAY. x_____x

ahhh, so hang fuk.

you jump, i jump.

tracy and en.

at his new sweet home =D

I was happy with friends. =)

Thank you =)